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To the adventurer: what my anxiety taught me about faith
I’ve always loved adventure. Where others see obstacles, I see opportunity– sometimes, to a fault. See: local 18-year-old girl comes near-death during a long-boarding accident. But suffering from anxiety made me feel stuck. Nothing helped. That is, until I found freedom in faith. Anyway, as a young child, I was the one who would convince the other kids to take the mysterious trail home, or to walk the “long way back” for sight-seeing or in hopes of finding a wounded animal to nurse back to health. I created Survivor games in my backyard where my sister and I would play…
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Turning 27: A message on love, faith and perseverance
I’m 27 and only now understanding what real faith and perseverance actually looks like. If you feel lost, I wrote this for you; if you’ve recently had a birthday, I wrote this for you. I rang in my 27th year here on Earth stuffing my face with my father’s famous baked ziti and a sweetly layered bucket of trifle that my mother and niece made. Layers of chocolate cake, pudding, cool whip, and candy. Dessert heaven. Prior to this, each of my early-to-mid twenties birthday parties were charged with massively loud crowds of people, alcohol, and illegal fireworks. The type…
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How to let go: when holding on hurts more
I am finding that this season of my life is demanding I learn how to let go. Things I wasn’t prepared to let go of: a job, a comfy, codependent relationship, a sense of security, the ease of grocery shopping without covering my face… But I’m giving in a little more each day. And by “giving in,” I mean I’m coping. I’m praying “Thank you” to God instead of “Can you please bring this back to me? I think you messed up…” I’ve even been able to ask myself if these things were even good for me before they were…
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I Wrote this for you: to Women living alone in quarantine
Last night I went for a long walk through my neighborhood, down to the seawall and back. It was the first time I’d taken a walk by myself since the beginning of the Coronavirus quarantine. As a woman living alone in such an uncertain time, I’m finding new ways each day to become a better version of myself. The sun started to set as I popped my earphones in and set out, unusually carefree about what time it would start getting dark. It’s getting harder to know exactly what day it is. I think we’re somewhat conditioned to track time…
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If You Feel Lost I Wrote This For You
If you feel lost, I wrote this for you… “So, what do you do if you don’t know what you want–where do you go?” You decide that you want happiness, and then you go wherever you find that is. You find it in the rattling of your bones when you hear a good song; you find it in the tiny hairs on your arm that reach out in ovation when something inspires you; you find it in words, pressed between your favorite journal pages like poppies; you find it clinging to the soft parts of your body like sand after…
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